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| In Dreams (Cheiu); In dreamland :3 | |
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| Topic Started: Apr 12 2009, 01:09 AM (50 Views) | |
| Haruhisa | Apr 12 2009, 01:09 AM Post #1 |
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Cheiu...you are more important to me than anything else in the world... Words that he wished he had said during their time together, instead of the words he had said before their departure. Haruhisa's nights had been restless at best, and he had been unable to sleep for long periods of time. More than often he would wake up with tears wet on his pillow. All over the things he wished he had said and done after they had fought, before Cheiu had disappeared from the face of the earth. It was time for another night of sleep, and even as he lay his head down to rest, Haruhisa knew that his sleep would not be pleasant. --- "Fuck me..? Babe, you already have." Cheiu turned away from him, walking to the sink, turning his back. "Get out. Go, have your cigarette - and don't bother coming back." "No...I won't leave you. I don't want to leave you. Not ever. I'm sorry..." Haruhisa said, walking up to Cheiu, though he couldn't touch the cobra. He couldn't. He simply stood there, arms by his side like an idiot. Do something, damnnit! "I love you Cheiu...please..." If only he were a stronger person. If only he could just give up the damned drugs like Cheiu wanted and just stay with him forever. Something simply stopped him from reaching the man that he loved so dearly. Something not quite under his control. "Just...tell me what I can do...to fix this..." His eyes were on the floor, arms curled around him. |
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| Cheiu Dingh | Apr 12 2009, 01:49 AM Post #2 |
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After informing Mai that he would have to take a break from working at the host club (as if that could really be considered working), and that he'd be leaving for Melbourne for an unknown period of time due personal reasons... Cheiu had left Paris. He'd left Emi a message too, as well as any others that may be curious about his wherabouts - but nobody really knew why he was going. And they wouldn't. For whatever reason, Cheiu had chosen not to tell absolutely anybody in Paris about his father's death.. not even Haruhisa. He'd actually kicked out Haru, rather then just came right out and told him what was wrong. It was almost needless to say that sleep for the past several days had been an awkward time for Cheiu; especially after the funeral. He constantly had nightmares of family members staring at him, eyeing him suspiciously (though these nightmares tended to leak out into real life, too) and Haruhisa, just.. there. Nights were unsettling times, and laying down in the hotel room bed (he'd claimed to everybody who'd asked that he'd already arranged a place to stay), he already knew that tonight would be no different. --- He refused to get out, and Cheiu squeezed shut his eyes in frustration. Why wouldn't he just leave? The longer Haruhisa stayed in the room the harder it'd be to stay mad at him, and the more guilty he would feel. "Haru.." He sighed heavily. What the hell was he supposed to say? "You can't do anything. It's just who you are. This isn't just a quick fix like it is with the drugs.." Shaking his head, he finally turned to face the fae, and Cheiu felt the overwhelming urge to go over and comfort his lover. An urge which was proving quite difficult to ignore. "I'm sorry. It's... just not that easy." |
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| Haruhisa | Apr 12 2009, 01:10 PM Post #3 |
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“It could be easy...” Haru said, silent tears falling from his eyes. “I don't want to go Cheiu...” Giving into his feelings, he walked up and simply placed an arm on his lovers waist. A chaste kiss to the cobra's upper back followed, even though the gesture was not the same when he was kissing a shirt. “I can try, can't I? At least let me try...” Haruhisa wasn't sure he could even last a few minutes without lighting up a cigarette, in truth. Would he still feel the same towards Cheiu without everything that he took? Would he even be the same person? Haruhisa couldn't even remember why he'd taken them up in the first place. There were a lot of memories that had been lost to him with the use of the drugs. But what he'd originally wanted to forget...was a memory that had disappeared over time. Replaced by new hurts that had also been bandaged with drugs. At least, for that moment, he could enjoy the touch of his lover underneath him. The feel and shape of Cheiu's body was something Haruhisa had long become accustomed to and something he would never get sick of. The contact made his heart race, even though they were not in the best of situations. “Chieu...I love you...don't make me go. Please...I can change.” His voice sounded faint, mainly because he didn't want Cheiu to know that he was already crying. |
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| Vale | Apr 14 2009, 04:10 PM Post #4 |
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mina fails at life. delete kthnx.
Edited by Vale, Apr 14 2009, 04:11 PM.
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 It's pronounced 'valley'. UNTAGGED | |
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| Cheiu Dingh | Apr 14 2009, 04:12 PM Post #5 |
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That was right, it 'could' be easy. But Cheiu was choosing to make it difficult, choosing to complicate a situation when he could have merely come out and said the truth, and made it all the simpler. He squeezed shut his eyes as Haru walked over - to say that the contact was a comfort would have been a severe understatement. He wanted to try and quit; at least give it a shot. Try to change the very essence of his being just for Cheiu's happiness. In all honesty, the cobra didn't even want that. He loved Haru just the way he was, unconditionally. The real fear, was the fear of losing yet another person to the drugs that had taken his father. It didn't even matter that they hadn't spoken in months, or that even when Cheiu had still lived at home they'd tended to often fight.. they were family, and losing family was always difficult. And by this point - he most certainly considered Haruhisa his family. Inhaling as he turned round, both arms wrapped around Haruhisa's waist tightly, pulling the two closer together. "Don't cry.. Please.. I can't stand it when you cry." He knew, somewhere inside of him - even in a dream he knew - that it'd be one of the most difficult things the fae had ever done (if not THE most difficult) to quit the drugs. Let alone the smoking and drinking. It wasn't as if they'd hurt him yet, who was to say they ever would? It didn't matter that he was willing to try, the sad truth was that there was a likely chance he would fail. And as much as Cheiu might've wanted to, right at this moment he couldn't handle anything less then a solid promise that Haruhisa would never touch drugs again. "I hate it when you cry, just stop.. please.. you don't need to go-- just stop crying." The tears, made it so much harder to push him away. |
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| Haruhisa | Apr 15 2009, 11:35 PM Post #6 |
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“I'm not crying.” Haruhisa protested, face now buried in Cheiu's chest. Of course when Cheiu had drawn them closer together, Haru's hands had automatically wrapped around Cheiu in return. A sad sigh escaped his lips when Cheiu said that he didn't need to go. In truth, now that it had been brought up, the issue could not simply disappear. Still, looking up at Cheiu at that moment, he just wanted to forget about it all. Playing with the edges of Cheiu's shirt, Haruhisa placed a hand underneath, resting his fingers lightly on his lovers' back. Could this be the last time he would speak to Cheiu? Haruhisa bit his lip, before looking up into Cheiu's eyes, which shared an emotion identical to his own – sadness. The longer he stared up at Cheiu, the more he wanted to take that sad expression off his face. Standing on tip-toe, he gave a small smile before kissing Cheiu chastely on the lips. It was not enough for Haru, not by a long shot, but it was enough for that moment. “Cheiu...I...I don't know if I'd be the same guy without other influences...I've been on em since...” Haruhisa paused, remembering when it was exactly that he started. It had been when Sakura had died, when he had started living in the Ossuary with Masaru so long ago. There was so much that Cheiu still did not know. Haruhisa wasn't entirely sure he wanted his lover to find out. Still, he felt he owed Cheiu an explination, at the very least. “Cheiu...I...I don't think you'll like the story I am going to tell you.” He said, breaking contact with Cheiu once more and wrapping his arms around himself. “I know I dun really open up much about my past but...its for a good reason...” He smiled at the floor. “I don't remember much...I know Mas does...but...” Haruhisa couldn't even look at Cheiu anymore. The memories that he had tried so hard to never remember were clear in his mind at that point. “I used to be food...I uh...kinda...” He didn't know how to tell Cheiu that he used to feed blood those under the council. Much less that he had done so willingly, and had enjoyed getting rolled in the process. “I really can't...” Haruhisa shook his head. “I'll leave. I'm sorry...I...” |
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