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Real-life Rants; Vent here.
Topic Started: Jan 9 2008, 03:44 PM (22,181 Views)
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Clockwork Master

Something that I didn't touch on in my initial post while others did was reglion. This is mainly because I don't have any major experiences like the one you described above. I live in a pretty multi-cultural place, and the city I jump to often (Montreal) is even more so. Thus I never had a major surrounding of religious folk, or ever felt belittled for nothing being so.

That said, I can definitely sympathize with you there. And the fact that your moving away from that very closed minded town is probably for the best in the long run. Remember, no matter what you see, keep strong, and like Aiko said, always remember the good stuff ;).
"I believe that the human spirit is indomitable. If you endeavor to achieve, it will happen given enough resolve. It may not be immediate, and often your greater dreams is something you will not achieve within your own lifetime. The effort you put forth to anything transcends yourself, for there is no futility even in death."
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Just imagine if you looked different. If you didn't even need to open your mouth, if all they had to do was look at your face to know that you didn't belong. If they didn't even need to look at you, if they just saw a foreign-sounding name on the door or on some paperwork.

I feel you. I've been there. And it wasn't just the cold shoulder, either. It was open hostility.

When I was a kid, living up here in the Dallas-Fort Worth area (where as of last February I am once again living), we had this family that lived across the street, the Adamses. My mom and Mrs. Adams were very close, the perfect neighbors. The youngest boy, who was my age, was my best friend. One of his brothers, Cody (name not changed, fuck the guilty) was just a couple of years older than us, and he was pretty cool too.

That is, until he realized that we were Hispanic. Then he started calling me a border jumper and telling me to go back where I came from. I was born here. My parents were born here. My grandparents (with one exception, naturalized in the 40s) were born here. I know of no relatives in Mexico. I don't even speak Spanish. But every day, it was "Go back where you came from." Every day. Every. Day.

Did I mention I was in 1st grade, and he was in 3rd grade?

This has affected me to this day. It has shaped my views, it's made me very proud of and defiant about my culture.

More recently, as in just a couple of months ago, I was at work, going out to my car to get a pen, when a cop passed by, slowed down, stopped, and stared me down. Broad daylight, before noon, walking out to my car in the company parking lot, wearing a shirt with my company's logo. And yet, there was just something about me that was so suspicious he needed to pull over and eyeball me for a bit. I didn't dare even make eye contact. He might've taken that as a threat. Thankfully, he just drove off, but still. That was scary. And that's not something that happens a lot to me. But in that moment, I knew that one wrong move, and I might've been on the news.

I know how it feels when you don't belong, when you're surrounded by people who won't let you forget that you don't belong. It sucks. It makes you angry and resentful and makes you hate everyone around you.

But you know what? They didn't win. You know how they win? If you become just like them.

You're the winner here. You're getting the hell outta Dodge. You're going to a new place, and I know that's terrifying. But you know what? It's also incredibly exciting. You'll get to experience things you've never had the opportunity to experience. You'll meet the kind of people who you'd never see in a million years in Rexburg, or probably in the whole state of Idaho. A few years from now, you'll have a whole new life. You'll be a whole new person, learning about the world and growing in mind and in spirit. You'll be happier just by virtue of having gotten the fuck outta that hellhole.

And those people? They'll be the exactly the same a year from now, five years from now, for the rest of their lives. There's a quote I have in my sig at the moment from Muhammad Ali: the man who views the world at 50 the same as he did at 20 has wasted 30 years of his life. That's them. Youre about to embark on an adventure, the greatest adventure of your life to date, and these losers refuse to leave the Shire. They'll waste their lives away in a sad, boring existence in a lily white, homogenous world, never learning, never growing, never having any new or interesting experiences or encountering anything that could remotely be considered cool, constantly fretting over whether or not they're going to hell because they accidentally heard an Iron Maiden song or because they saw a commercial that had a girl in a bikini.

You know what they are? They're sad and pathetic, that's what they are. Fuck 'em. Fuck 'em all.

When you guys drive out of that town for the last time, floor it. Drive like a maniac, roll down your windows, and blast Tupac's "Hit 'em Up" at max volume. In fact, do it on Sunday morning, rolling past the local Mormon temple just as service is letting out, just so they know how much you're gonna miss them.

Good for you, B. Get out of there. Live. The world is an amazing, incredible place. And yeah, even outside the bubble, there's a lot of stupid, ignorant people who hate and fear those who are different. Here in DFW, they grow on trees. We had four high profile racial/religious incidents that made national news just last year (most notably the clock kid; hoax or not, Irving, Texas was all to eager to fall for it, just as they eagerly fall for any whacked out conspiracy theory involving brown people/foreigners) And this is an incredibly diverse place, a major metropolitan area. Hardly a little hick town in the middle of nowhere. Assholes are everywhere. But you know what else is out here in the great big world? Only everything. All the cool stuff you never find in Rexburg, Idaho. All the cool people who don't want any part of Idaho to begin with. There's fun and craziness and drinking and gambling and rebellion and sex, drugs, and rock n' roll (the real Holy Trinity, as far as I'm concerned).

There's people who don't care about your religion. There's people who will love and accept you for the amazing, brilliant person you are.

We love you, B. We always have, and always will.

And by the way, according to this wonderful name generator I found, your Wu Tang name is Phantom Artist.
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Sex, drugs, and rock 'n roll is the real holy trinity? Well, damn... I need to catch up. I only get one out of the three, and it ain't the first two...
Since my liver is larger than my heart, does that mean I'm designed to drink more and care less?
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Slow. Fuggin'. Clap. Jefe.
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Nowhere near as epic as B's post, but I need to vent.

So, last Thursday, I took my PC up to my brother's house to get the latest Minecraft update.

On Saturday or Sunday, it said something about installing an update. This is AFTER I had it disconnected, by the way. So I let it install and restart, since it said something about an automatic restart happening later on, anyway.

It was fine for a couple days. Then, this evening, I get home, turn it on... And everything is messed up. More than half the icons on my desktop disappeared, almost my entire music library is gone, and now, to play Minecraft, I have to reconnect to the internet and sign in.

Oh, and, all my music, pictures, and videos? It didn't delete anything, just moved it to another folder.

At no point did I get any kind of notification to download any updates. Before, it would ask, and I would tell it not to.
Since my liver is larger than my heart, does that mean I'm designed to drink more and care less?
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oof, that is no fun Alkari. if you are running windows attempt loading into safe mode and running a system restore, thats my godo undo for strangeness that happens in windows.
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Well, the thing is, I don't know how to do that on anything later than XP, and I did a search for system restore, getting no results.
Since my liver is larger than my heart, does that mean I'm designed to drink more and care less?
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Thanks for all of your kind words everyone, I just really wanted to get that out of my system. Been feeling much better about it since.
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My supervisor came up to me today and told me that today was my last day at the dealership because they were forcing him to let someone go. Don't know or care how many, either.

The reason was because the dealership wasn't doing enough business to keep five detailers, which is total bullshit, as we have been CONSTANTLY working, aside from the 4th of July.

However, he said he's going to find out if they'll let me transfer to the other Nissan dealership, which is actually closer to my house.

But I'm not holding my breath. I might as well move to Colorado and become a pot farmer.
Since my liver is larger than my heart, does that mean I'm designed to drink more and care less?
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Any news yet, Alk? Being between jobs is so stressful...
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