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Real-life Rants; Vent here.
Topic Started: Jan 9 2008, 03:44 PM (22,245 Views)
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...I've had more bad days than I've had hot meals. Today was more or less a repeat of my last entry here, minus the part about the albatross wings.

I honestly don't know why I keep trying to give myself a better image. I've already sullied it too much by being easy to anger. People stay away from me. I'm always alone. I'm sick of it. And the people who don't leave me alone generally make me either want to beat them until they die of internal bleeding, or get run over.

I don't see any reason to go to school anymore. All I really do there is get recaps of things I've done in years past, and get annoyed.

And then there's this one jackass. He's the main problem. He ALWAYS comes in to attack me after I've been annoyed for half a class. For some retarded reason he wanted me to walk in front of him. Why, I have no idea. But after refusing to several times, he shoved me onto the street. In fact he did that twice. Why does my gym class have to have all the assholes and retards in it? So anyways, the people behind me were stepping on my heels again. I asked them to stop several times. They did, for about 5 seconds. Then they started again. Even when I ran forward they'd run up behind me and keep stepping on my heels.

So I thought one person in particular was stepping on me, because he's been an asshole before to me. So I punched him. Reasoning does not work if the people you try to reason with simply refuse to actually stop what you want them to stop doing. The other guy then shoves me onto the road.

And from my perspective at that time, it looked like I was being shoved around for being annoyed. This, obviously only made me even more angry. I wasn't just asking them to stop. I was yelling at these people to stop. And do they? Not really, no.

Finally a teacher gets involved. And its here that I see my fault. Or rather, one of my infinite number of faults.

I don't know why I still try. I make myself look worse and worse every day. In fact, I think I actually scared two people away from me.

And as a result of me being bothered for a reason I am yet to discover, I now see myself as a worthless strand in the rope of humanity, not connected to the rest. I am likely not going to continue my family. I feel that I will die cold and alone, probably at the age of 22 because some jackass thought it'd be funny to see what happens when somebody's spine is broken.
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From the way you're viewing yourself, it's generally not very good ones mental health. I'm not about to play down the biggest repurcussion (Which you can probably guess anyway), but general, it can really afflict one's self-esteem. Plus, seeing what's going on, stress, anger, and a couple of other negetive emotions will eventually contribute to some bad health over time.

Don't focus on all the negative perspectives of your life. Acknolwdge them, but don't let them drag you down. This sort of thinking keeps you from seeing any of the good stuff in life. Look for something, a hobby or a job or something else in real life, that will actually make you happy despite all the odds that surround.

Sometimes we aren't given a life that's exactely 'decent', but there really isn't much we can do about how we start out life. It's how we go through it that matters, and there are plenty of examples of people that rise above the lives that they were born in. A nice example is H.G Wells; in fact, you have some slight reminisence towards the main character in the book called Catcher in the Rye (At least, that's what i remember it being called).

Just don't try to do anything extremely drastic.

Also, if you got some flaws, try to deal with them in the best possible way. Don't let yourself get the idea that your flaws cannot be changed, because they can be affected, at least to an extent. You've seen what you were doing wrong to get rid of those people, and you learn from that. If it seems like your just beating against a brick wall, try another way, and even get some advice. We've mentioned a couple of them, but there's no reason to think creatively

Also, if you do leave you're back to a guy while he's talking, you're kind of leaving yourself to be attacked. This is also called ignoring some problems, but this doesn't seem much of the case.

I do hope i given you some nice piece of advice. We don't always have nice lives, and I'm only trying to get you determined to make the best of it (Sometimes you may even make the best of your flaws, as they can also prove to have their benefits. Don't let the idea that you're 'infinitely flawed' get you down in a negative way.)
"I believe that the human spirit is indomitable. If you endeavor to achieve, it will happen given enough resolve. It may not be immediate, and often your greater dreams is something you will not achieve within your own lifetime. The effort you put forth to anything transcends yourself, for there is no futility even in death."
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I gotta say, a rope does not have a useless strand. Each strand builds the rope to be more durable, more useful.

But seriously, the more you let them anger you, the more they win. I don't want to spout out some crazy turn the other cheek stuff, but I'm going to anyways. Why? Because you, kid, need some help.

They're jerks and don't deserve your attention or reactions. They're a waste of your time and emotional strength. I know it's hard to ignore them, and they obviously all seem to be in one place at the same time, which makes it worse.

You don't need to one up them or anything, just bore them out of picking on you. And it's going to take time, and a lot of patients and dedication. And hey, find someone to rant about your day afterwards, but it needs to stop.

And if it gets too bad, I really hate to suggest such a dead social life, but try cyber school. I've been in cyber school since 7th grade, and I've gotten some awesome friends from it. You can't get judged when no one can see you. Just like here at RE, you can be yourself. And by the time people actually meet you, they already know and are anxious to meet you. Provided of course you make an effort to participate and be friends with them.

Depending on what state you're in, you can switch to homeschooling and finish school by taking college courses. You'll have at least a year of college under your belt already, making you're career easier.

I was having issues at one point, and a very good friend was very encouraging to me, and he gave me some wonderful advice. He told me to take my finger and my thumb, and hold them close to each other. Not touching, just close to each other. That's about how long this part of your life is.

You're an important person with talent and contributions to make. Don't let those things get ruined with the small part of your life that high school is. Don't carry the attitude you have now with you. You need to hold your head high and move on.

I hope I've helped, I've never been very good at being encouraging, but I'll pray for you. I hope things work out well. Just don't give up, don't ruin yourself over this.
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Rip and Cemp covered it pretty good there, but I'll go ahead and add to it.

Rip is absolutely correct when she says that those people aren't even worth an ounce of your attention. Yes, they're annoying, and yes, it's virtually impossible to ignore them, but you're better than they are and deep down you know it.

I hate to give the old woman talk, but I'm going to. High school was one of the most stressful and annoying parts of my life. I didn't have a lot of friends, I was never in the 'cool' group, and I got picked on a lot for my thick glasses and good grades (I was the classic nerd). It's hard to give advice on how to handle situations like this, since everybody is different. It's best to speak your mind rather than get physical, although I completely understand that sometimes it's very hard to restrain yourself.

I'm tired right now and giving sucky advice for sure, but don't you dare let what others think of you color how you think of yourself. You are a uniquely talented, creative, and interesting individual. Don't ever let anyone convince you otherwise. Be yourself, and feel sorry for those who need to pick on you to feel important.
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Chances are, you won't see much of them after graduation. Plus, people really only do that crap in high school. If you go to college, that won't be nearly as likely to happen to you, because by then, they will have grown up and won't bother with it if they end up at the same college you go to. Plus, a lot of the folks who are like that are the ones who end up as burnouts, drunks, or, if they make it to college, dropouts. Indeed, most of the people I knew who were assholes that actually managed to get into college dropped out, while the rest went practically nowhere. As for the girls... well, girls who are like that in high school have a tendancy to become strippers.


Speaking of college, I just saw on the news a little while ago that, apparently, anyone needing loans for college may have to start looking for loans somewhere other than whatever lender the loans are currently coming from by fall. I don't know if I'll be able to find where I'll get the loans or not. The facts that I'm not from a rich family and that my parent's didn't try to start any college fund for any of us are going to put a damper on things, too.
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As for the girls... well, girls who are like that in high school have a tendancy to become strippers.


I have a couple good stripper friends... But, they weren't from my high school. The girls you're talking about there are more likely the barefoot and pregnant ones with a herd of pre-human spawn generated with the assistance of a dead-beat dad.

Here's the "Old Man" talk. I'm thirty-one. I ain't gonna candy-coat any of this. And, though I know you probably may feel inclined to ignore this, I figure it helpful if its coming from a more-or-less stranger than someone who is closer to you. Say, for example, parental units.

The people above pegged it pretty good, though I know high school can be a vicious time. When society thought it wise to group of young men and women together when their decision making processes aren't that well developed from lack of life experience coupled with physical/mental developments and a strenuous education curriculum, we either end up with strictly disciplined individuals or severe chaos.

Blend in with the crowd, be like a lemming. I've heard this somewhere, and quite frankly it makes me shudder. Peers don't like the idea that others are different. Don't ask me why, because I was a target just like you. With this concept, you become less of an individual. But, because you'd be like everyone else, it'd be hard for others to target the traits that make you unlike everyone else.

However, I know this is nigh impossible since your peer group already know what buttons to push. Just don't talk about yourself to anyone. Close yourself off from the peers that are harmful to you. Don't give them any more ammo than what they already have. Find only those you feel you can trust and rely only on them while not revealing too much of yourself to them.

Ignorance is bliss. I've heard this countless times from school counselors to parents to friends. This can be a two edged sword. I know because I've faced both edges, and they both cut like hell. On the one side, they may lose interest, but that is an extremely rare case even when you succeed. So, on this edge, you ignore them and ignore them. All the time the stress builds as your sense of paranoia would tend to get to you. You can't find anyone to talk with about it since "nothing is happening" or "I didn't see anything, so I can't do anything about it." Eventually, you pop bringing you back to square one.

On the other edge, sometimes (as human nature's predatory instincts dictate) that if the bully can't get at you from one angle like he had been doing, they're going to try another. They'll keep trying various angles and tactics to get to you. Rile you. Hurt you. Mame you. Everything from false accusations, to fake invites to the dance leading to embarrassing situations, to even being lead into a trap where it becomes just a physical gauntlet.

Been there, done that, too. Not only did I face such a gauntlet (as I used to ride my bike home... I was ambushed), but they found out where I lived. My parents and I woke up one Saturday morning and found our house vandalized.

There have been students in a similar situation that you're in that have been murdered by such bullies. They couldn't get a reaction out of their target, so they upped the ante. Eventually, it got out of control.

There are signs to look for. I can't give any clues as to where to look for each situation is significantly different per individual instance. Eventually, you'll learn what to look for. The problem then becomes how you handle it properly and maturely so that the proper authorities (be it school staff to police) can come to your defense.

An authority figure is not going to listen to your problem if you're ranting, raving, and screaming at them. They will respond better with a mature and professional attitude if you can show them you can get to their level of thinking. If you need to report your problems, make it just that: a report. Give them times, names, instances, places, and be factual and professional.

Marching into that office with a sour or angry expression, ranting at the principal "that son of a bitch just tried to get me killed by throwing me out into the street in front of an oncoming car" will immediately put the person on the defensive.

However, simply stating, "thank you for your time. [this person's name] during Gym Class at approximately [this time] had managed to manhandle me in such a manner as to throw me into the street into traffic. I feel that this act is unsafe for myself as well as the people in traffic. The people who were there to see the event is [list of names here]".

Which would you be more interested in listening to?

Pick your fights; its okay to defend yourself. Some fights are not worth fighting. Someone calls you a name. So what? Shrug, chuckle, move on. Someone decks you, then defend yourself. Run away if you can. But, if you're cornered or if you're in that much danger of harm, then by all means put 'em up and make them work for what they want out of you.

NEVER throw the FIRST punch. If that first punch coming in is serious, you have every right to believe your life is in danger! Again, re-read the above paragraph where it says "run if you can". If you throw the first punch, you just opened the door to a lot of trouble by basically inviting your "target" to just wail on you until your unconscious or worse. I don't care who's bigger, badder, meaner, or stronger. There's ALWAYS someone bigger than you, and if not, they have friends that are.

Throwing the first punch makes you the bully. You become no better than they are. When you do, not only are you sending that invite like I said, but now you're the attacker and they're the victim. See how self-defense works there?

This may not seem so much like advice overall. However, it should help you logically see the bigger picture. I know emotional states can get warped and heated. But, sometimes someone just has to show you the painting so you can get a better perspective.

Just think: High School is only four years long. After that, you have the rest of your life to worry about more important things like job security, a roof over your head, food supply, retirement, and health care.
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Oh...my...God...

Monday was a beautiful day, a stunningly warm and perfect 72 degrees here. Yeah, it was pretty windy, but it was so nice, we were able to do stuff without even jackets on.

Yesterday it blew just as much, but then 3 to 4 inches of damned snow piled onto everything, it's like instant January over here. I have half a mind to fashion a magnifying glass made of ice and use it to melt every copy of An Inconvenient Truth I find on my Abominable Snowbitch rampage.

Global Warming my ass. All that melting that's been going on this past month has been for naught.

Hell isn't fire and brimstone. It's a freaking. Icy. Wasteland. Snow is great, but I'm ready for some damn sun. My complextion is starting to resemble a napkin that's had a Fillet o' Fish rolled on it.
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I feel for you B, at least to an extent XD. We had so much snow fall this winter that, at one point, it was a frickin winter wonderland outside. You should see the snow pile outside, and while i enjoy shovelling, I was getting sick of having to keep doing it.

On the other hand, most of snow has now melted. It's nice to see the St. Laurence river rise to unusual proportions, so long as you aren't victim to it (Or living near it).
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Man, I guess everyone's said all there is to say. I hope everything goes well, it seems like there's always people who delight in being idiots. On a more casual note but none the less negative, the collages around here are doing that too. I was thinking about going to a local collage when I turn 15, but seems like they're not really giving out grants anymore.
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...Some jackass broke my keys :|

Of ALL the things he could've destroyed of mine, he had to destroy my KEYS. So I was locked out of my own house.
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