- I Have To Go Now
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Post by: GoldenMuscledPyromaniac Date: XX-XX-XXXX at 06:00
There's not really an easy way to say this. There's just not.
First off, I just want to apologize to everyone. For all the things I have done these past few months, and for all the trouble and grief I have caused all of you. Especially, Seiji-san and Suzu-san. Seiji-san, I'm deeply sorry for betraying you to Haru. I've forgotten who my real friends were, and I regret it fully. And Suzu-san, I'm sorry for what happened that day in the ruins, with both the flaming sword and with leaving your friend for dead. I am stupid and selfish and reckless, and I understand why you are always angry with me.
Second, I want to apologize to all of my other friends. I am truly sorry for disappointing all of you with my actions. I know you were all counting on me to grow up and change, and I've let you all down. I'm sorry.
With that said, I can only hope that what I'm about to do will help me grow up and become a better person once and for all, so that you would all be able to forgive me and trust me again.
I'm leaving the community.
I've decided to seek out a professional mental therapist who might be able to help me figure out what's wrong with me as a person, and hopefully, I should be able to truly better myself once that is done. For that reason, I will not be participating in any community projects. That means I won't be able to do the memorial project that MovingMonkeyNightlife is currently doing, and to him, I apologize for this. However, I will still respond to PM's, and occasionally post in non-serious threads as I see fit. But I won't go to the ruins, either by myself or with anyone. At least, not until I have matured and I'm better able to handle myself around other people as well as in high-stress situations that the ruins tends to bring.
That said, I will still be able to work at the metalworks, and if you have any orders for weapons, you can still contact us through the official metalworks thread. I actually really enjoy working at the metalworks with Naoya-san and the others, and I fully intend to continue working there for a long time. I'll also be taking a part-time job as a waiter at one of the local restaurants on Matechi Street. It should be good exercise for my social skills, as well as my ability to follow orders. Plus, the pay there should keep me afloat too.
With all that said, I thank you all for taking the time to read this. And again, I'm sorry for all the trouble and grief that I've caused for all of you. I can only hope that you would be able to forgive me, and I truly hope that going to therapy would help me grow up, change, and become a better person, once and for all.
Thank you very much. I am grateful to have been a part of this community.
Thank you.
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