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Topic Started: Feb 3 2014, 08:20 PM (381 Views)
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"...I see. Was that meant for you or me to hear, though? It doesn't take a Wild Card to see you're trying not to forget that you did those terrible atrocities by hating yourself. I can't stop you from doing that, but I just don't think that your pain benefits anyone." Kumori said, shoving his hands in his pockets. He shook his head, trying to get a handle on what to say. "And I hope that you will not force people from walking in the same direction. You're not the only one who wants to see the world change for the better, Fyodor-san.

"I will respect your decision to go it alone. There are definitely trials that need to be faced in solitude. At the same time, I hope that you'll have the courage to ask for help whenever you should need it. Your... army, your Archangels... People that you know... They're willing to help if you need it, and it wouldn't be beneath you to say yes to those offers. Please understand that."
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Aleksandria gave a smile. "Ashdown and you think awfully similar Yatsu. Perhaps I am. Perhaps I am just simply hating myself, pitying myself and throwing an incredible burden on my shoulders simply because I don't want to face the fact that I can never be forgiven for what has happened. Only now do I want to see change."

She shook her head. "I wouldn't stop people that want to walk in my direction. That is of course why I formed the Archangels to begin with." She looked out the window. "But they all suffered for my past. Got involved and some got hurt."

She turned to face Kumori, eyes tired, haggard from entirely too much running. Too much hiding. "...I am tired Kumori. Very tired. I do not feel like I should have been allowed to cling to life, that Kawabata should have ended my life there. I cannot imagine what the families I destroyed must feel. All I can do is make the future brighter. That's... all I can do."
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"If you're tired, then let the world stand still, even for an instant. Let yourself breathe. To rest. If you've spent your time preoccupied, fearing the past and the future and yourself and the people around you..." Kumori said, walking up to a closed window. The window clacked as it slid open. A small mist of dust coalesced, suspended in the sunbeams. "You forget how much good there is in life. You've shattered lives and families, Fyodor-san."

Kumori turned his face away as his grip on the windowsill tightened.

"You've cut wounds that won't fully heal. But that doesn't make you special. That doesn't make you a god or monster or reaper or ghost. You're human. You make decisions and mistakes and live with their consequences. So do we. Those Archangels that were injured followed you because they wanted to. They understood the risks of what they were doing. They could have stopped at any point, but didn't. Why? Not because you said so. Because they believed in the same cause that you believe in.

"And they'll continue believing in that cause and fighting for it. You must have felt something when you were with them. I don't think that you're living so far in the future or so wrapped up in the ugly things you've done that you couldn't stop to feel grateful for their company." Kumori turned back to look at Aleksandria, eyes glinting with rare ferocity. " 'I don't deserve any of this' is a thought that pisses me off, Fyodor-san. I can't change how you think, but I hope that you consider what I said."
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She sighed. "If I stand still for an instant, Mikhail Fyodor will destroy me. If I breathe, others will know who I am. There is no safe place I can go. I am hunted by the very men I tried to comfort, tried to protect." When he mentioned how much good was in life, she turned her head to meet his eyes, a smile on her face.

"That's why I want to help. I want... others to experience that good and maybe someday, I'll be able to atone for my actions. Even if it means a lifetime prison sentence. Once this is all over, I'll face my mistakes head on. I won't run anymore. But for now, being captured, being sentenced to a lifetime prison sentence, none of these things will benefit me."

Aleksandria nodded. "I did not install myself as leader of the Archangels. The group can run quite efficiently without me there. Its... not even a hierarchy. Everyone gets a vote and if one person disagrees, its a veto. I thought of how... if something must be done, everyone must agree. It is how the bond of comradeship works in my country."

The Russian gave a sigh. "I did feel something. I felt safety. They came to my worst hour and pulled me free of the wreckage. Had I... been with the Archangels that day, maybe my mind would not have become so twisted. I love them like family and distancing myself from them was like stabbing my own heart." The girl averted her gaze. "Why should I have happiness after all the suffering I have caused? It may piss you off, but the thought is true."

A pause. "...Though... I am considering what you said."
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He let his hands drop to his sides and shook his head. "I don't speak as well as Kameko-san does. How you want to pursue your own happiness is entirely up to you, but if you plan on atoning for what you have done... Just remember that there are necessary things that you need to do. Sometimes it might not feel good to do the right thing, but I don't think that walking down the straight and narrow means that you should be suffering every second of your life.

"And, as far as I can tell, you're standing still now, Fyodor-san."

He leaned against the wall, listening to the sound of the air outside, sports teams yelling at each other, the blaring of whistles a tweet from so far away. A small smile. "I hope that there's no suffering right now."
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Aleksandria smiled. "Kameko-san stopped me. Stopped my campaign in its tracks. Even after I had failed, I was determined to pick up the pieces. It was her words that stopped me." She sighed, her cigarette gone and the craving for nicotine higher than ever. "What things must I do? Enlighten me Yatsu-san. I have tried to fix what I broke and now with these... these... chyerniy kapyoshon using our weaknesses against us."

She stared at him. "I have failed. I am never standing still Yatsu-san, that is merely the illusion I give. As we sit here, I am currently watching every possible exit, ready in case anyone tries to stop me. I cannot be killed now. The Police say to get out of their city. It stopped being theirs when I had to step in to protect it."

The Russian sighed. "...I wish it could all go back. That I could be the student reprimanded for smoking in class, that I could be friends with Kameko-san and Charinko-san and not have to worry about the consequences."
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"Keep from hurting yourself. Please. If Kameko-san tried to get you to slow down, then she must have had good reason to. If you're taking care not to get caught until your objective is complete, then it makes no sense for you to pick the thorniest path you see in front of you," Kumori said, stepping away from the window to rummage something out of his backpack. He pulled out a piece of notebook paper and jotted down something.

"...My contact information, if you don't already have it. It wouldn't mean much to say 'keep in touch' if I didn't give you this, at least. ...I'm sure you've been keeping up with current events, but the ruins are affecting this city in some way that we don't yet understand. We need to figure out what's going on before anything bad happens. If you're asking about what to do next, then that is at least my objective. I think that if you want to pick up pieces, the ruins are where it should start."
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"Keep from hurting myself? Were I still the woman I was before Yatsu-san, I would have laughed in your face. But Kameko-san and Charinko-san both prove I am not the same woman you encountered earlier this year. I am... different in most aspects." She nodded slowly to herself. As he began to draw a notebook she took the paper without even a second thought.

"Perhaps I do. Perhaps I already know everything that you can know by having all of your digital data. Or perhaps I am bluffing." When he mentioned the ruins the girl nodded quickly. "Oh I know. They are as much your goal as my own. The answers lie at the bottom and I will find them, no matter what I have to do."

Rising from her position she stared to the boy for a moment. "I once saw this arm as my burden for a single moment of weakness. I know now that there is no point in holding onto items that latch me to my father and my family legacy. Would you.... heal my arm again? If I asked you?" A laugh. "..I do not expect pity, but I cannot build the future with my arm bearing the stamp of my father."
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"I would, Fyodor-san. Though I might put a price tag on that particular commission. Call it selfishness on my part, but I've only worked off of old wounds on occasion, and it will be my first time working with a limb that's been missing for so long." Kumori nodded, glancing over at Aleksandria's prosthetic. He looked down at his hands and tapped into a small burst of Dia. "I don't think that I've ever denied anyone treatment. I hope that it stays that way, that I can keep on believing that people can heal and grow and change." His smile contrasted the bitterness in his voice. "I suppose my belief has been tried quite a bit as of late. It's so easy to see people as two-dimensional, to remember them through exaggeration and just as easily to be naive. Maybe I'm a bit blind to these things."
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Aleksandria nodded. "I will pay whatever you ask. I feel as if... I have been too hasty. Do not misunderstand me, I am not looking to be healed as we speak. It is merely a consideration. Losing my arm has given me perspective to understand that maybe I was hasty in assuming it as a burden. For the moment though, it is a strong ally.

She moved a little closer, the girl's yellow eye covered with a surgical bandage. "I believe that we can all grow and heal and change. I'm beginning to see the fruitlessness in carrying the past like the heavy burden it is. I am glad I got to talk to you Yatsu-san. I know you may not ever forgive me, but that is not what I want."

She walked for the door, proving she was done, for now at least. "I merely want your assistance. I merely want to help you find the truth of this entire incident. I want to stand on my own two feet, as Aleksandria, not as a Fyodor."
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