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Cracked Mirror; Sora
Topic Started: Jul 28 2012, 08:42 AM (724 Views)
Dante
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Treo didn't react. "So you've killed three people. I apologise, my analysis was founded on faulty data. I didn't figure you to be so violent when confronted with something you dislike."

The boy looked away, the first time he broke eye contact for what seemed like the entire discussion. "I was not intending to insult. You at least know the weight of a life, which places you above common killer."

He nodded. "I know nothing about you. But you don't know anything about me either"

He looked uncomfortable, like something had just stabbed him in the heart. "Didn't you listen. I can't... stop. it." He looked back over. "In the blood? I see, I see. Maybe nothing can be copied truely. Which would make me a flawed mirror." He chuckled to himself. "That explains the cracks.""
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"I'm very violent Treo." Sora responded. "I gave up the thing that kept me calm. Didn't I already tell you I'm weak? I'd rather kill you now than have everyone else have to deal with the consequences. It'd be easier. I'll shoulder the blame."

Sora finally smiled again. "Know nothing about you? Didn't you already say it yourself Treo? If you are nothing, then there's nothing to know about."

He brought his finger up to his mouth and bit down hard on it, causing a few drops of blood to pour out from the now open wound. As he tilted his hand to the side, the blood fell on the ground.
"I've got something that makes me me. A disgusting self, but still a self. And what do you have Treo? A cracked mirror that only ever produced warped, distorted reflections to begin with. What good is a useless mirror? No one wants to have a useless mirror. They don't want it with them. People will just continue to pass you by like they always have, only stopping to look at how much of a train wreck your mind is. You'll just continue to be lonely. The more you cry out for people to look at those cracks, the less they'll care. They might try to patch you up but you won't let them. All that's left after that is pity.

"And what good did pity ever do anyone?"

Sora shrugged. "When I look at you, I don't see anything complicated. Just a lonely boy desperate to make any sort of emotional connection with anyone. I'll wallow in my own pity and you can wallow in yours Treo. But don't ever, try to breach my world again. Stop deluding yourself."
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Treo still met him with that listless expression. "Shouldering the blame.. that's all you ever do. Take the weight for everyone else. I'll take care of it, I'm a killer." He tilted his head and looked at the edge of the roof. Jumping off would silence all the self doubt in his mind.

"I define myself as nothing. But you don't know anything." A hand moved instinctively to his pocket, rummaging around and finding a small cuboid wrapped with elastic bands. After removing the bands he held up one card, knowing it was the first of the deck. "Number 0 the Fool. Something we do share Sora-san. But how far is your journey." He kept the card aloft.

He saw Sora bleed. He looked at his own hand. Did he have a self? He looked back at Sora and back to his hand, this back and forth continued until Sora stopped talking. "Distorted reflections of the world around me. I don't have a self, I only have what I call a self, a boy who looks at people and can tell how much weight they carry."

He focused his eyes back onto Sora. "And you're crushed under your weight. But you want to atone, you want to take the weight for other people. That's why you're crushed. You want to carry all the problems so you'll forget your own." He blinked, his eyes glazing over once more.

"I might be an cracked, broken mirror, but my shards still reflect people and their problems and I may not understand you Sora. But I know your problems."

He blinked. "I see the same thing in you. A boy that yearns to be with the people, but can't let himself, in fear of doing something he will regret. I don't wallow in my self pity. I'm trapped. I asked myself a question I told myself to never ask. I'm merely reaping the reward. Until I find my answer, this is my 'self'. Not a lonely boy yearning to make connections. I can't make connections. I don't yearn for what I can't get."

"I'm just like The Fool. Nothing. Zero."

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Sora laughed, though his anger was clear.
"Didn't I just fucking tell you to not insult me you sack of shit? You think I want to forget my problems? You think I want to forget all the terrible shit I've done? I'm pathetic, but I'm not that pathetic. I can't forget. I never could. That's why they bother me. Because they know I wont forget."

He focused on Treo. "If I tried to forget my pain that would be the biggest insult possible to those around me. I don't like my problems, and I don't think I can fix them. But I won't forget."

Sora winced. He could feel the presence of others behind him. Was it his Shadows? The feeling didn't linger long however, and disappeared shortly afterward.

I'll deal with you on my own time...

He let out a chuckle, running a hand through his hair. "And why shouldn't I? The others... Kaji, Ryouta... Kaede and Kira... they're way too kind inside to have to shoulder this sort of thing. Kira might blame herself for Chouko's death but that was no one's fault but my own. And I wholly intend to shoulder the whole burden for that. None of them need to deal with anything like that. If I could, I'd take away all their pain. If someone's pain is another's gain then I would take on the burden of the world in order to atone. I want them to be happy."

His eyes drifted off a bit. "I know it's crushing me. I'll continue until it paves my head into the ground. A fitting end for me don't you think? I don't deserve anything less. I'm not capable of escaping."

He chuckled. "If you're trapped then all you can do is roll around in pity. Don't fool yourself. That's the area where we're alike; we both want connections. I can't get them, but I still want them. I think you're the same way. But I don't think it's impossible for you."

His smile slowly disappeared. "Now, are you going to stop mimicking me Treo? You already said you couldn't reflect me earlier. So stop it."
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Treo closed his eyes, then focused them back onto Sora. "Forgive me, when I meant forget your problems, I intended it as a way to put them to one side, to stop thinking about them. People don't try to think about things they can do nothing to change."

He allowed himself a smile. "Perhaps I am the Fool in more ways than one. I have done nothing but read you incorrectly. A Fool in all ways it seems. A joke. Lighten up Sora." He tilted his head. "So ready to drown in everyone's problems you forget the the forest for the trees Sora-san. You do have bonds. People that care. I do too. I may not be able to make the complete bond, but the faint ties are there."

He walked closer to the edge of the roof. "You think yourself so ready to atone for all that has happened, when all you are doing is blaming everything on yourself. Its not healthy Sora-san. The others wouldn't want you to do that. You have those connections. Okawa-san, Kameko-san, Endo-san. Just like I have Yatsu-san, Kaerunuma-san and Fusoku-san. I may be trapped but you're right. I want those connections."

He smiled, a grin very familar to Sora. "I can't stop copying someone. Its not something I do consciously." He lifted himself over the small barrier, hanging from it with both hands, the ground below him. "But there is one way to stop a mirror."

"Break it."

He leant back on his arms, his feet touching the edge of the building. "Smash my head onto the concrete? Maybe that will stop me."
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"Sorry Treo, I just don't find you to be very funny." Sora responded flatly, glaring at Treo.

He sighed. "I thought we just established that we can't make any solid connections. Are we backtracking here Treo? Are you that scrambled inside? Besides..."

A laugh rang out. "I want more. Because I'm selfish and jealous of everyone else. When I'm around everyone else, I can't help but hate them at the same time. Because I love people. But I hate them too. They made me complete, but they made me feel inadequate as well."

He looked down at his feet. "Caring is... probably something I don't deserve and I don't understand why they would. I'll admit I wouldn't understand that."

Sora wasn't even entirely sure who was talking at this point. Had he realized all this stuff long ago but never brought it out? Or was it just their influence?

He watched as Treo moved over to the edge, the other boy walking a thin tight rope.
"If you do that again to anyone else, I will push you off."
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Treo sighed. "Apologies Sora-san, I'll try to make a joke worth laughing at."

He nodded. "Not solid, but faint. Like a small pull, enough to reach for my masks but not the person inside, or the nothingness inside."

"You want more?" He went silent. "You hate and love, you feel complete and incomplete at the same time." A hollow laugh resounded. "Now who is scrambled inside? You may not deserve it Sora-san, but you have it anyway."

Treo looked at the edge. "I can't stop doing that." He released his arms and fell back.

"Goodbye Sora."
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"I don't think comedy's your strong suit Treo." Sora said, expression flat. He listened as Treo continued, not bothering to formulate much of a response. All Treo did was regurgitate what he'd already said. A mirror through and through. Whatever the case, it didn't feel like it meant much coming from Treo. It felt too hollow. Even the anger he felt towards Treo was hollow. It was simply that part of his own self that drew out his rage. Sad really. Both of them.

Treo told him he wouldn't be able to stop. Sora was about to open his mouth to make some comment when Treo decided to throw himself off the building. It happened in a split second but Sora's mind was racing.

He didn't make any move to save the boy from the plummet. He'd already told him he would kill him. But somehow this wasn't as satisfying was it? It'd also be too cruel wouldn't it? He could save him still. But did he really want to?

In the end he winded up doing nothing.

He walked over to the edge, feeling rather empty inside. What had happened to Treo?

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The first step was letting go, then feeling weightless as his feet pushed him away from the building. He wondered as he fell, Sora's words echoing around his mind. No-one wants a cracked mirror and all a cracked mirror is good for is being smashed.

"I'm too afraid to let people help. Too afraid I'll reflect them and see what they really think. People are disgusting underneath their shells and my mirror helps me see that. But I don't want to die."

He spoke to the air, no answer to be expected, but as he kept falling, he could hear a voice. It was faint at first.

"You desire.... survival. You will survive."

He hit the floor a pain running through his body comparable only to spells he had faced. He didn't snap in two, his bones broke and his spine cracked, but he wasn't dead. The legion of impacts shook his body as it lay in a heap. People noticed him and called an ambulance. Treo however looked up.

Right back at Sora. He smiled. "I... stopped." He tried to reach out an arm, but he just couldn't make it move.
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Sora stared down from above at Treo, watching as the people around him panicked, several on their cellphones calling for the EMTs. It was funny how they went so far to help someone they probably knew nothing about. A sense or moral obligation perhaps? Either way, they were certainly better people than himself. He had done nothing to help Treo. And even now he did nothing, save for stare back at the broken boy on the ground.

"Shit." He hissed. Treo was looking right back at him. The other boy would live. He would be rushed to the hospital and whatever they couldn't fix another persona user would.

"This is my fault too..." Sora mumbled, stepping back from the roof. No doubt people would come asking questions. Did you push him off? If it was suicide why didn't you stop him? He'd take the blame for it.

"Dammit Treo... did you have to go this far to learn something?"
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