Post By: FBomberMan
Date: XXXX-XX-XX at 13:12
I get that you have little monsters in your heads. They annoy you at night. They give you night terrors, they keep you from sleeping, they make you hallucinate, they make you attempt arson, theft, murder, rape, any damn crime that you please. They shoot lasers, freeze shit, burn it up, smash shit, slice, dice, and make Julienne fries. Normal people don't have these little monsters in their heads, these things called Personae. But guess what, ladies and gents? Confuckingratulations, because
you do. If you're reading this, dear Bedlam User, then that means that the shithead in your skull is your cross to carry.
There isn't a rhyme or reason for this. Or at least not one that we can think up. You got the Persona, you got the magic, and you are free to fuck up whatever shit you want. Blow up a car. Blast out a building. Shoot up some innocents and drink their blood. It's all a crying shame, isn't it? Your Persona is making you go batshit crazy and you can't help yourself, right? Not just that, your Shadow is all blabbing about your insecurities and it's making you all self-conscious on the inside. If you were in the right mind, you wouldn't pull off any of those stunts.
Blaming the friends in your head? The devil standing on your shoulder? It's just too much to bear; they put your entire brain into a damn blender and hit 'puree.' Big fucking deal. We all have to handle that sort of shit. Guess what, kiddo. You're not the only one who has to deal with this mindfuck. I go through this shit too. Bad ideas from my Persona? Check. Problems keeping it in line? Yeah. The whole Shadow thing? Hell yes. But what's a difference between the two of us? Think about that for a second. Think long and hard about what the difference between Takashi Kouno-sensei and you. Aside from the beard, the glasses, the blue hair, the cursing, the alcohol.
What's the big divide?
I haven't killed anyone with my Persona. I haven't gone into this so-called "Monster of the Week Mode" from the Sunday release of Super Sentai Spandexrangers. I haven't murdered innocents in the damn park. I didn't destroy thousands of dollars worth of public property.
You know the first thing that went through my head when I was watching the news? What the fuck. It isn't everyday that you get to see that many scorch wounds and craters and dead people and blood all in one area, but you guys managed to deliver it to the local stations all wrapped up with a ribbon tied into a bow on top. 'I heard that there was a party, Nagashima. We didn't have any cake or presents, so we decided to wreck up an entire fucking public area. We killed some people for shits and giggles, too.'
But again, it's not your fault. I get that. You don't have control over yourself when you're a monster. At that point, it's on full auto-pilot with instinct at the helm. I know that people don't turn into rabid, slobbering masses of violent energy by sheer will unless they have major fucking issues, but let's be honest here: everyone in Nagashima's fucked up in some way. You can't pull out the excuse that you had such-and-such awful childhood, because for everyone excuse you pull out of your ass, ten people have a sob story fifty times grimmer.
You want a Freudian excuse for your actions? Well, fuck you. There aren't any moral get-out-of-jail-free cards in this town. There aren't even morals. We live in the pisshole of a society teeming with apathetic fucks and malicious souls. That's the story of Nagashima's demographics, people; if you aren't giving half a shit, you're probably pushing drugs or robbing banks or kidnapping children. I'm not saying that Nagashima's entirely made up of those two groups, since there are plenty of decent people here.
So the point is this: Nagashima's a cesspool of crime. You are a special snowflake, one of a hundred-odd or so. You've got powers beyond the magical, shit that makes you ask why you were chosen to take on the mantle of 'tragic mindfuck hero.' And you are justified in wondering that; you were chosen by the golden butterfly. Chosen. Go ahead and use your magical mask powers to do amoral shit if that's what you want. But what does that tell us about you, O Chosen One? So the least that you could do, in my eyes, is to take some responsibility for your crimes.
Most people here haven't committed all of these grave sins that I'm accusing the general public for. I know that. But in the last month, how many times have people lost control? How many times have we had monsters prowling about Nagashima? This whole debacle in the park is the first time that people have been killed, but how many times do we need to have this happen before I drive my message through to your fucking skulls? Moral fiber has no damn meaning if you can't prevent
yourself from losing control.
I shit you not, you can stop yourself from going monster. That's the entire point of this mammoth post. To tell you that there is such a thing as self-control. Turning into a monster isn't unavoidable. It's a damn choice. A choice to give up fighting. Fighting against yourself. Ladies and gentlemen, I hope that all of you are ashamed to know that so many of us couldn't scrap together the spiritual fortitude to keep on at it. I'm out of beer, which I will soon rectify, so I will leave you with this message.
If you find your Persona or Shadow or whatever start to take control, fight it with all you've got and more. Bite at it, kick it in the teeth, punch it in the groin, whatever. Just put up a hell of a fight. Don't ever let up. Your actions are entirely your responsibility, regardless of your mental state. We like in a society, for fuck's sake. Start to fucking act like it.
Edited by
Yes, Apr 8 2012, 08:15 PM.