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Topic Started: May 14 2009, 11:00 PM (2,302 Views)
rking44

Our beliefs aren't all that different Gin, I think maybe we just express them differently because of our experiences like you said. I believe that God embodies both the male and female for we were created in his image. I guess I'm just more focused on the male aspect because I lacked a loving father figure and that's what I need right now. I believe I understand a little of what you're beliefs are and we're not that far apart. Indeed we have so much of whats important in common that whats different doesn't matter.
Thanks for the congrats...I'm so glad it's over.
Edited by rking44, Nov 18 2009, 10:16 PM.
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Yeah Russ, I'm happy for you that it is over. Me.. I still have to take mine. Yuck. I hope I dont forget to much by then. I'm still waiting to get my test date. Do you have any advice? Or shall I say.. WHAT WAS ON IT?! LOL. I know there is a lot. Cant be that simple with 160 questions. I'll be glad when I am finally done also.

remember, whenever you are ready.. I have books if you want to borrow them. Some, You cant find in the library or in a bookstore. You have to be a member of an organization. "The hidden".. LOL. Well, in our times.. its called "Occult". But its not really. No Satan :-).

And your right.. we are the same. Thats why I wanted you to join here to read some of the material here. It can very eye opening. All of the writings here on this site, are not just idle thoughts..they are recorded in history and proven over time. ( MINUS my journal pages lol, thats all my brain scary?)

I also want you to know.. really know.. that here the people are of nonjudgmental. They do not judge. They are of the highest yolk I have ever known. So, dont be afraid to post your thoughts, revelations, questions etc. They answer only in Love and acceptance. And nothing is shared with others from here. This is where I am able to open myself up, and I am grateful to have that. My spiritual family here may not post a great deal. But they know and they love. Poppa only allows really good people on here. He is a little psychic one might say. Its all about trust.

I am going to let you and everyone here know a little skeleton I have in my closet.. but I do not wish this shared with anyone, as it would hurt my immediate family. I am posting it only because I want you to know the level of trust I have for you. Members here, already know this.. but its something you do not know.

When I was younger and me and my husband seperated.. I had three little boys. Two in diapers at the same time. I was working 2 full time jobs. One job paid for the sitter. Well, the ex took the only vehicle I had. It was in his name, so it was legal for him to take it from me. He drove across state with his girlfriend to take my van. He left us with a 100.00 bill. I had no way to get to work or pay my bills. I walked to work.. which was about 5 miles one way...till I hurt my leg.
I used up all of my savings to pay bills. The boys and I had no food. No Gas to keep warm etc. It was really bad. I tore up curtains to use as diapers. I thought about giving the boys over to foster care. But I couldn't let them go. We had been through so much together that I knew no one would love them as much as I did. I needed help.
A friend of mine, or we shall call him a friend at the time. Was a married man with children. He offered me money to have relations with him. I had no choice but to agree. He paid me well. And I was able to put food on the table, turn on the heat and place real diapers on my sons bottoms. So.. You see, for a short amount of time I was a prostitute. Then I went back to college. I'm not proud of it. But now, I can look back and not beat myself up for it. Where as before.. I was a mess. I hated myself for the choice that I made. But at the time, I didn't see any way out. It only happened a couple of times.. but that doesn't matter. Its a scar for life that I had to deal with.

These people here and many others of the same yolk helped me to love myself and not judge. I had to accept responsiblity but I have since let it go. This was over 15 years ago. I've had many many many other difficult times since. But this is just one of my not so noble moments. Its just a reminder of what Love is. I loved my children so much that I would do anything to keep them safe. Just as Mother/Father loves us. My world has changed since that time. Things have gotten much better. But that is only because I grew spiritually. There are others who are just like I was then. Lost, scared and alone.

Its part of my life journey to help others know Gods love. To love them unconditionally as best as I can in this form.

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Gin, I'm so sad that that happened to you, but thank you for trusting me enough to share it. It changes nothing...I love you just as much now as before, if not more. Deep sharing does that sort of thing...it tends to make love grow deeper. Maybe one day I will have the courage to do the same, it's just so damn hard to let secrets out.
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Oh Russ, You dont have to let secrets out. Thats really what journaling is for. It allows only us to view and deal with. I know that you do that already. Thats all that matters.
I was just allowing you to see that on this site, I feel free enough to open my soul. Thats all. For you.. it will take a while. It took me 7 years. And it wasn't even this site that I met these wonderful people.
Trust takes time. We are all very guarded individuals because we have been hurt so many times by the people who claim to love us. Its all apart of our "life experiences" that we will take home with us to the other side.
Thank You for allowing me to share a part of my life with you.
Love and Be Well
Gin
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You want to know something really cool Russ?? In our belief system, we believe that when we cross over we can live others expereinces. We can actually immerse ourselves in their life experiences as they are experiencing them. The good and the bad. Some will call this by different names. Like Metaphysics etc.. I dont know. But in the NS belief system, which is actually ancient belief systems brought about during this time, that we can experience much without having to live it.
It is only the most courageous that reincarnate on this planet. Because the pain and strife is so very difficult.
Anyway.. can you imagine immersing yourself in Jesus life span? Feeling what the disciples felt? Being there when Jesus was born? Oh la la..

Whos life or what time frame would you like to view or be a part of?
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Wow Anita, You were right, there aren't many people on that site at all. Not as many as I thought would be there, knowing how popular SB is.

Poppa told me that in this day and age, people are having so many hard times that they are having trouble with their own spirituality. I'm starting to believe this. There just aren't many sites that have many people on them. Or shall I say, that are willing to post anything. I wonder why?

When I look back at my life and everything the boys and I have been through.. I'm amazed of where we are now. Even my Psychology Professor took me out to lunch one day to ask me..well, more or less, why my sons weren't addicts, abusers or had trouble with the law. I own all of that to the belief system that I took. I'm very blessed to have known all of you here.

Rita Berkowitz told me in my last reading that I had two guides. They were both male. One was an American Indian and the other was a conqureor (ms) meaning that it was odd to have two male guides when I was a woman and that my guides had completely different outlooks from their perspectives.. Where as one would sit and contemplate.. but the conquror just jumped in. So, what does that mean? She also said that she saw no females around me. Very strange she said.
I should have asked her why that was strange, as I dont know the difference.. but alas, Ms. Berkowitz is a wonderful medium and I love her dearly. Thank You Pop for introducing me to her :-)

Love and Be Well
Gin
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I am sure Cas is right infact I believe this has been the separating the weat from the shaft times we have heard about. Also the closing of the msm boards has made it harder to have the same type of boards we are use to.

From some of the things you have talked about in your life, I think you were wise to ask males to be your guides. They were bring up the intellect side of you. Not that you weren't strong and smart, but look what you have faced in life, they were there to help you stay on track and make the decissions you needed to make. My feeling is you have some females that come around often but just not as guides.
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Whew! What a week it has been my friends!

First.... I turned 40 this past Tuesday :) My family and I all went out to eat after I came home from work. Joshua bought me this beautiful diamond necklace. Bless his heart.. he made such a big deal out of it. He had his brothers all sit down next to me while he gave me the present. It was funny because when I pulled it out, he forgot to take the price tag off. He acted like it was soooo expensive. LOL, actually it was expensive..but he got it for 75 percent off. Reminded me of the time when he was just a little thing and would go and gather dandilions out of the yard and run up to me with weeds hanging out of his little hands and say.."here mommy..these are so special, and they are just for you!". Ohh how time flies.. but to see the joy of him giving me those dandilions again.. would trade all the precious stones for those dandilions. Just the purity of giving and Love. How special it is to be a mom.

Second.. On Thursday I went and took my licensing exam for Therapeutic Massage. I PASSED!! Now, I can treat people with the knowledge of a Therapist, and the energy work!

Third... well, this didn't go so well.. but I hosted a little get together for my massage class. I invited a few of my most dearest successful friends to attend also. My friends knew that I had invited them because..well, not only did I love them... but I wanted to help my classmates get some networking. These friends that I invited are all succesful business women. HOWEVER, these women are also Pagan, Wiccans and Gnostics like myself. They are all Single moms, strong, loving, Caring, Funny, Free willed, honest beautiful women who do not appreciate cattiness. And mostly they do not like people who insult me.
Like me, its hard finding friends who do not judge you on your beliefs or what you do for a living, what you look like etc. I accept them as they are, as they do me. So, when a couple of my classmates started insulting me behind my back while I was out of the room. You would have thought hell walked through my front door. I walked into the kitchen and overheard one of my friends telling a classmate.."I think you need to get your snobby *** out". Then I became the peacemaker. I had to ask my friend to behave herself. I didn't like doing that. Actually.. I shouldn't have. Needless to say.. those classmates really lost out on alot.
But in the end.. I feel like I cheated my friend out of being herself. Hope she accepts my apology. Not only for my classmates behavior.. but mine for allowing my classmate to stay.
Makes me realize how grateful I am to have such wonderful friends.


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Gin,
You're a beautiful 40 and you honestly look like you're in your early 30's. But that's just the outside, inside you're ageless. A perfect work of the hand of God, never forget that. As we spoke of on fb that diamond shines more than you know, and it's the inside that counts, as you know.
I'm so sad about our friends acting out of the superficial part of themselves and saying whatever it was they said. It was apparantly a acting out of some need of superiority that they need for themselves, to make themselves feel better about what they percieve themselves to be. As you know, it was not a statement about you but of who they are. I envy you the friendship you have...to have friends come to your defense and not be afraid to speak their mind. We all need friends like that, who love us and aren't afraid to show it.
Gin, you are a living, breathing testimony of Gods grace and forgiveness...I see how you reflect this in your life and your dealings with others. Nothing else matters.
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Russ, you are always so kind. I really think our family here would like to hear the philosophy that you have on the "pooh and glitter". It was extremely insightful. Its not my philosophy to share, so please do so at your leisure :)
told you that I really liked it!
oh, and by the way.. thanks for the support. You and your wife are blessings to this crazy world, and I am happy to call you friends.
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