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Topic Started: May 14 2009, 11:00 PM (2,305 Views)
PoppaCas
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Hello sweet daughter----
the realization of our moving quickly along the path of our existence
may give you pause but this dear is what life is about.

Learning, doing, failing, watching others fail and being able to do nothing to soften that blow.

Ren and i were discussing
we have studied and learned so much, and still are studying and learning
and yet can give none of it to some one to use when we are gone. The material things
will disappear soon after we do and thus , there is much truth in what Koheleth tells us in Ecclesiastes.
Ecc 1:17 I was determined to learn the difference between knowledge and foolishness, wisdom and madness. But I found out that I might as well be chasing the wind.
Ecc 1:18 The wiser you are, the more worries you have; the more you know, the more it hurts.

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That of course sounds very fatalistic, but I do not feel that is true. Here is why---
although this may be true in part, it is in the doing that we learn for our benefit--
and that is what our Lords have wished for us to do.
We learn by doing.
Therefore we will at time be foolish, wise and a bit mad in our actions here.
Those around us are at the same time going through seemingly inexplicable things.
There is reason in all things, and in doing the reasoning we learn.

Yes, we hurt because those we love stub their toes, but in the end we can only cry with them
for they carry the solutions to their problems in their on backpack for life.

Gin, you are growing my love and that can at times gives one pause
for those actions taken
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My stroll through these beautiful plains has been as i planned for it to be.

Thank you Lords for all things....

i offer blessings to each and all....poppa



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Your words always bring such comfort Poppa, I am glad you planned on walking along with me.
Thank you.
Patti

Gin, I hear your Mother's heart and understand. But it is for them to go through, as were our own hurts. I sometimes wish I could take on their wounds, to ease their pain but they must learn to that for themselves. Sometimes it feels like there is but one Mother's heart we all share a bit of, and that is why when one of us hurts, we can feel it acutely.
Big hugs Gin
Love to you and your boys
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Hello Sweet Patti---

Is it not marvelous the freedom we have to come and share with those we love----
we all planned well---at least to my thinking.......
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There is much wisdom in your words
Sweet Patti


The Mother Heart of which you speak
is that of the Holy Mother Alter Ego of Our Creator.

The Mother Super Consciousness contains the
synthesis of all Mother Spirits past. present, and future
and in this flow of compassion of all Mothers Flows
and is shared to the extent you wish to participate.
The more frequently you enter into the association
with this Super Consciousness the more completely do you
feel it within your being.
Magnificently, gratifying is that we mere males may also receive from the Mothers Flows.


Blessings, peace and love............pop

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:wub: This world would be such a harder place for me if you weren't for my Spirit Family. I am so proud to be a part of this loving family. The Love and support here is so genuine that most would not understand the love and compassion we share.
There are many of our family that does not write..hopefully they read..but if not, thats okay. We are together in spirit.
I was just thinking of how long we all have been friends. Simply amazing. Somethings we may not have wanted to hear..because truth can be painful at times, but when we are able to separate our egos from self..the relationships only grow deeper.

You are all so much a part of my heart.
Love and Be Well
Gin
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It has been a good day today. I had the privelage of bearing witness to a baptisim this afternoon. I have been to baptisims before, but never an old fashioned one where the person is washed in the river with the small congregation standing on the river side singing Amazing Grace. It was very nice.

As the others were singing.. I was watching the pastor. His face lifted to the heavens..One could sense that he was pondering Jesus Christ and God as he was about to immerse the ladies in the water. What a beautiful sight. It was truly lovely. Always lifts my spirits when I sense others feelings. Especially when they have the feeling of the Holy Spirit. Ahhhh.

Poppa.. Audrey was in my thoughts and prayers during the baptisim.
Love and Be Well
Gin
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Hello Sweet Daughter----------

It is good to see the Baptism Performed
and pray for one accepting the spirit of love in
their spirit.

Baptism definitions are enigmatic for there is
much discussion re:immersion or sprinkle--
perhaps it would be good to remember the symbolism
may represent the saturation of the ego/spirit/soul
by our Comforter The Holy Spirit - is not THS the conduit -- not water.

Whatever is your understanding is correct, for that is right for you.


Blessings, peace, love :wub:
be well
pop
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:wub:
YESssss, The Holy Spirit is the conduit :wub: How is that whenever you mention The Holy Spirit, I just get all warm inside? Oh how I appreciate THS and what it has done for me and others :D

Yall missed me playing the harp for my first time in public tonight :O Wish yall could have been there. It was so funny.. I got so nervous that I froze up and couldn't read the notes!! So, then I just said.. heck with it.. and I let Spirit lead my hands. My family came to hear me play..and they thought I was sooo good. When actually, I wasn't even playing a song. The tune.. I know not, because my hands were just tools to the spirit. It was grand. Wish yall could have been there. :wub:

Off to bed for me..
Love and Be Well
Gin
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Hello Family,
This past week has been very stressful for me. Moving and having people underfoot constantly has me a little out of sorts. Still not used to being here, but I guess it will take some time. This house seems to be more comfortable than my other. Its not as fancy or new as the other house, but this will do. Am just so grateful to have a home with a roof over my head. We are blessed in many ways. So many others are struggling to keep their homes.
The boys and my mother all seem to be doing well here. I've not had any complaints..which is a good thing. Right now, my room is the study. I plan on finishing the basement and making my own form of apartment down there.. well, minus the kitchen. It will be nice to have a place all to my self. That is most definately a must. Just a place where I can relax away from others. I've never been a social person...and all of this socializing is causing me to frazzle.

On a not so good note...
Last week on the last day of school before break, I had a little problem. My idealisim caused me some issues. I felt as though an instructor delivered a message to my class that should have been done in private before involving my entire class. Because she involved my entire class, including myself... I felt as though she was insinuating that we were a part of this problem of making fun of another woman during a massage. To tell you I was upset is putting it lightly. I was infuriated. I dont think my other class mates were that upset... but different incidents effect us all differently. I spoke to my instructor after she gave her lecture, and she said that she believed she handled the incident properly. That she wouldn't have changed her delivery at all. Well.......
That infuriated me even more. Because I live my life pertaining to my beliefs... it was as though she slapped me and my classmates in the face. Insinuating that she believed we would behave in such an unprofessional manner.

Maybe I could understand that the instructor didn't mean any harm in it.. but prior to that class, after a previous class, she shared some information with me about what the other instructors thought of my class. And none of it was great. It was almost like they couldn't wait to get us out of their school. My classmates are all very different. None of us have similar personalities and the instructors have had a hard time dealing with us. Only maybe two students in my class does the instructors find to be a pleasure. The rest.. not so good. But, just because we are so different does not mean that we have the basest of human characteristics. My other classmates did not know of this information that the instructor gave me prior.

So... unbeknownst to my classmates, and because I did not want to involve them because that would be putting words in their mouth. I solely wrote a grievance letter and sent it to the owner of the school. I shared the experience with her and how upset I was. I do believe my letter had a profound effect on her.. because she called me twice to discuss what happend. She said that it was very courageous of me to write that letter and mail it to her, because we are almost graduating, and most students wouldn't want to cause any waves. To be completely honest.. I didn't either. All I want to do is to graduate and be on my merry way. But, I was not going to allow another person to insult me or my classmates. The owner did speak to the instructor about what happened. And maybe we will not get an apology.. but, respect we should receive. She knows now how upset I am.

Gosh.. you guys should have felt what I felt when I got upset. It was Righteous Anger. And it felt so good to write that letter. I let her know exactly what I thought and felt.. it was like all of the sudden ....when I got angry that (dont laugh) that there was wings coming out of my back. Not that I'm an angel.. just righteous wings.. or something. Cant explain it. very strange. It wasn't the same kind of anger you get when someone cuts you off.. it was the kind of anger that I had when I had to go into Jacobs teachers meeting and they tell me that there was nothing wrong with jacob, but the doctors told me he had a mild form of cerebal palsy. That kind of anger. Oh well.

I'm almost positive that there is a lesson in there for me. I'm just not sure exactly what it is yet. Right now.. I just know that one person in a class doesn't dictate the personality or behavior of all the others.

Love and Be Well
Gin
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I am so frustrated today. My harp lesson wasn't what I expected. She will not give me any new material until I learn this song forward and backwards. Its going to be in the Christmas recital, but I find it kind of redundant. And, I guess because of that.. my attitude towards it.. it will be a very difficult piece for me to work with. I need to drop my ego pertaining to this.

School is okay. I'll be happy to graduate next Saturday, if I graduate. Only four out of my class have to take the cumulative exam. Which is good. At least the other four dont. They studied alot more than I did, and deserve this respite. However.. I'm struggling with the same problem I've had since beginning of classes. The motivation to study. I've passed every test, but the grades were not great. My fault. I did not study very much at all. And thats if I did study. I've been studyiong the harp more than my lessons, and doing all of those workshops. Isn't it funny how when we work with something we actually love we study ten times more? It's not that I do not like Anatomy and physiology lessons.. its just that they are boring. With the harp, I have instant gratification :=) Just the sound pleases me.

A friend of mine bought a blow flute thing. I'm not sure exactly what its called. But, I'm going to ask him to play with me. There are many pieces of music where the flute and harp are played together. I think it would be cool to play together.
well, work and study are calling to me.
May we all be blessed on this beautiful day.

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What we give, we Receive because we are all one. If we give Love, we receive love because one is a part of oneself. If we give healing, we receive healing. If we give prayer, we receive prayer.
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