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Topic Started: May 14 2009, 11:00 PM (2,307 Views)
Anita

I believe before we came here we were perfect. How could we be any other way? Then we left the other side for the purpose of learning. I think even our mistakes are part of our learning. When we make a mistake saying or doing something we wish we hadn't, I believe those to be some of our hardest lessons because we feel the pain of guilt. All we can do at that point is say we are sorry and make amens as best we can, then learn from it and let it go. You won't be able to forgive yourself as quickly as you would like, but hopefully you will in time. As for being perfect or reaching perfection, you are, all you are doing now is climbing the ladder of learning. The higher you go, you will be able to reach back and help someone else. I never read what you are refering to, but just reading how sorry you are for writing it is a reminder to me to thoughtfull of my own writing........See, you have already helped someone. Now I'm going to bed -_-
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Thank You Anita. You reminded me that we are all perfect. :wub: Sometimes just wish that our material wasn't so hard to learn in this classroom of life.
You are such an Angel to comment. The support is wonderful.
Love and Be Well
Gin
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Hello daughter Gin—
Do not mean to be filling up your blog area – am hopefully adding to your thought process in the expanding spiritual understanding.
Anita has added some very meaningful comments here also. Cogitation on those words is enlightening.
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Think on this please.

In our minds, there are always questions. Let us view your words from your post above, and copied here to view together and a thought or so for your consideration in formulating your Q & A pertinent to thoughts enigmatic to you. Have shown comments in this color. ????!!!!!.
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The difficult part for me is the "striving" for perfection. ????!!!!!.
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Yes! And it is for each of us here. The learning to address SELF in the environment of the flesh is difficult for all. The world is an environment of constant challenge to your spiritual growth. To paraphrase SB this is “hell” that we are walking through. Each interaction with things of this planet requires striving to overcome the negative influence.[/color]
Is it even Possible to reach perfection in our lifetime?
????!!!!!. In my opinion, NO….but, in my belief system I recognize this as being something our Creator knew and allows the multiple incarnations here to “strive” towards perfection.

Sometimes.. I just dont know what to do. I can catch myself thinking poorly about a person, or I can say something out of left field..out of anger or frustration.. not really meaning it.. but then when I look back at what I said or thought.. I will feel so bad about it. Just knowing that it is possible and that I do those things at times really bothers me. I know I'm not supposed to judge anything or anyone. But what if you just really dont like a person?
Even if I dont say anything.. the thought is there.
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Yes. As it is with each of us in this world.
I rationalize this in this way, each challenge overcome produces strength of spirit that may help me the next time. What does that mean? Well, we are at least recognizing the existence of our need to “strive” and not just ignore the thought.
We are humbled by our weakness and inability to be perfect.
But, we “strive” to follow the example of the Christ in constantly “striving” to enlighten our brothers and sisters by word and deed. In so doing we fill the plan approved by our Lords on TOS.[/color]


How does one Judge Not in everything? I know we are not supposed to judge others or ourselves.. but how DOES one go about getting to that point? That is the frustration. Afterwards I can acknowledge it..but then I am judging myself for judging others. Sometimes, I catch myself judging others who are judging others.. and it continues, like a vicious cycle.
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????!!!!!. This is a most difficult indeed. When you review the interaction with another, you are not judging. The review of action performed in, thought, word, and deed of a transaction with another is in fact the analysis required to assist you in “striving “towards perfection. Think of it in this way--- you must hone your sword to engage in the next battle with SELF. For each transaction requires evaluation to learn and avoid same mistakes being made.


Arrrr.. I dont know. Maybe it wasn't meant for me to reach that point in this lifetime. But, that doesn't take away the responsibility of knowledge.

This life thing surely aint easy. ********************************************************************************************************
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????!!!!!.----not easy-------yes that is true. Remember in your reading of SB materials she reminds you that if all is easy you are not learning anything.

If I could, I'd take the vow of silence.. but then.. there are thoughts. I just can't be perfect. Guess you were right...I must accept myself , good and the bad.. just as the Holy family accepts me. Work towards being a better person humanistically. But still allowing myself the Unconditional Love that Mother has for us. I can't take that away from my spirit. I owe her much more than that. Especially since she has been through all of my mistakes and joys with me.
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????!!!!!. Let Poppa remind you---Father/Mother God are very proud of your coming back to this “hell” to “strive” towards perfection.
It is also good for me to remember that the Special Creation of Mother God the
Christ Spirit came here more than one time honing his perfection and serving Father/Mother God in an attempt to be a Light Of Knowledge to assist in leading us to an understanding of “self” and our relationship with The Holy Family”.

You have much to say on Their Part---Pray for their guidance that you may express those thoughts they send you as They wish them expressed.


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If this is difficult to read i will revise


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[big]Sweet Poppa,

Let me first humbly thank you for using so much of your time on me. :wub: It is a wonderful feeling knowing that someone cares enough to express themselves in such a loving industrious manner.

You have given so much of yourself to me through the years. I appreciate it more than words could ever say. Just know that most of my spiritual growth has

bloomed through your loving kind words of encouragement. Where Mother/Father is the Son... you have been the drops of rain that watered my thirst for knowledge.

You and the family here, have never given up on me through all the discomforts, pains and turmoils of acknowledging self. After reading your discourse here, it

reminds me of a time when my questions were redundant..yet through the love of the spirit, you guys have never let me down or made me feel like I was being silly.

I am eternally grateful for my family here. Thank you.
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Pertaining to reply: I have much to think on the reply you gave. There is a great deal of information and I need to re read it a couple of times for it to sink in. Which, I shall do.

Love and Be Well
Gin
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Wow. Today I spent with my mother and my family at Kings Dominion. We had a very nice day. The weather was beautiful and the Theme park was not crowded at all. Michael Jacksons Death was announced at the park. Very Sad.
On the return trip, my mother told my boys some of the memories she had of me when I was child. ^o) The memories that she chose to share were probably not the best ones she could tell them. I believe my boys actually were feeling sorry for me.
Some of the memories were 1) My drowning in a river 2) My parents forgetting me at a convenience store and they not realizing I was not in the car for over an hour. 3) Me and my brother falling out of the front seat of the pickup onto the highway one day while my father was driving 4) My burning as a young child. Geez makes me realize that maybe not all of my anxiety has some reason behind it. LOL. I know my parents did the best that they knew to do when I was a child. They were children raising babies. So.. in all actuallity, I dont blame them. Heck.. all of those things happened when I was a wee thing.. because I dont remember them. I'm assuming that my spirit chose to have those experiences as a wee one to help with my own parents spiritual growth as well as my own. I'm thankful that I didn't remember those things.
These are things that I am glad she shared with me before it was to late. Just would have been nice if she could have remembered some nice things about me that didn't involve me dying or almost dying. Maybe tomorrow she will share some good ones.
I'm very tired, and tomorrow promises to be another long day. Off to sleep I go.
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Yesterday was a pretty good day, with a very scary event. I've been diagnosed with type two diabetes and the doc put me on one thousand milligrams of metoformin. She told me that it would take me a while to get used to it. So, even though I've still been having these dizzy spells (she said that if it wasn't the diabetes, then she didn't know what it was). So, I've been taking the medicine as directed, and I've been watching what I eat. Maybe to good I guess. I haven't had any sugar or potatoes or rice at all. Eating fresh fruits and veg's mostly. Well last night after i took my meds.. I went out with Gary. While we were at Gander mountain, I started feeling dizzy (AGAIN). Very lightheaded so I sat down while he continued shopping. On the way home I became more so, and felt like I was going to faint. I didn't understand this because I had just eaten supper an hour prior. But then, it got worse. Felt all of my blood from my head drop. My ears were tingling and then I started shaking. I told Gary to take me home. He became scared and took me home. By the time I got home my throat tryed to close up on me. And I had to remind myself to breathe.
My Mom made me eat some strawberries and then I felt better. Not to good, but not as scary. Now, I know what a blood sugar drop feels like, and its no fun at all. Today I just stayed home and rested because I physically felt exhausted. I had to call and cancel at one of my friends birthday parties and to another shin dig this evening. I told her what was wrong, but I dont think she believed me.
Why is this happening now? Seems like the past couple of years, my health has really deteriorated. Still at a lost over these dizzy spells. I thought the metoformin would straighten things out..but they haven't. gosh. Do not like this at all.
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:blink: Boy oh Boy what a past few weeks this has been for me. ER twice. One C.T. Scan and still feeling the effects. Apparently.. I have developed extreme side effects to the Blood Pressure pills my doc has had me on for awhile. That is what was causing me to feel like I was about to faint constantly. I know, because I stopped taking them. Not smart, I know.. but I cant live like that.
Between my body trying to get used to the new diet I've put myself on due to the prediabetes, the Metformin..which causes stomach problems, the faining situation..I started having panic attacks. Then, with the anxiety of worrying about fainting while I drove.. I tensed up. So, now I have these terrible tension headaches.
My doc? When I went to her about all of it, she refused to change my blood pressure meds. She seemed to think that it was "emotional problems" as to why I was feeling like I was fainting. She knows my past and all that we have been through. She believes that a person cannot be normal with that type of past. Ya know.. she may be right. I'm not claiming to be emotionally healthy. I've had to learn how to protect myself from being hurt. However.... I AM CLAIMING to know when I feel like I'm about to faint, and the only time I feel like that is when I take Blood Pressure meds.

So guys.. If anyone could say a prayer for my health. I sure would appreciate it.
Love and Be Well
Gin
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{{{Gin}}}
Oh my goodness I haven't been to your thread in to long, I had no ides what you were going through. Is there anyway to see a different Dr. I don't like the way her attitude is toward you.Please keep us updated with your progress.I can and will keep you in Prayer.
Love to you.
Patti
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Whew, I am finally better. It is so nice not to hurt or feel sick constantly. My heart goes out to anyone that is feeling the pains of illness. Maybe I had this experience for me to understand health and how important it is. Yes, we may be of mind, body and spirit. But, if any of these are out of whack.. then the other is effected. Not in a good way either. I thank my Creators every day now for my health. Trying to make the most of everyday in case I should have a relapse. There is so much for all of us to accomplish while we are here. Being laid up in bed for two weeks is not changing anything. I'm just glad that I feel my strength and health again.
Apparently.. It was the bp meds. Since I changed my diet and lifestyle.. my usual bp meds were slowly poisioning me. Now.. I've decreased my bp meds.. and I feel much better. Still, I wonder if while I continue on my changes of lifestyle.. how many more times will I begin to feel like that? I know I shouldn't worry about such things.. but the truth is.. I do.

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Stay in contact with your Dr. is the safest bet.Although if she doesn't take your word seriously it makes it very difficult.
I hope you continue to do well and maybe get off the meds completely.
Love you my friend, you are a light in my life.
Patti
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