Sep 05
Ahhh school year blues
well, school has started, i'm only taking two courses this semester, because i work full time at my universty, and if you are a full time employee at the school, they only allow you two courses. But that is ok, because after i work here full time for a year, my tuition is free, so it may take me a little bit longer to graduate, but it will be a lot less loans!!!!
I'm taking social psychology and the psychology of religion. both are going to be interesting courses.
I'm working full time, and its nice to have a set schedule, none of this working till midnight one day and then being back in at 8 am the next morning. Now i work the same hours, the same days a week. And its solitary work, i come in, do my thing, and leave, and maybe i see a co-worker on my break, but after 8 pm i'm the only one working. I can just put on my ipod and cruise through the day.
On another note, we just ordered a bag of the molicare super plus diapies. I posted about this in the product review section under the diapers diapers diapers thread. When we get the bag i'm going to post a review and how they compare to the abriform xplus..
the diapies are purple. like a nice pastel purple. I think that rocks.
This is also my first time ordering from xpmedical so i'll let everyone know how that goes as well.
Aug 04
SORRY!!!
SOOO i'm sorry for my last two blogs, i was in abit of a mood i guess you could call it.
I'm much better now.. daddy and i went to this thing thats sorta like an animal sanctuary, and you take a tram ride and the animals are so used to the tram they are literally just an arms length away from it, and you COULD reach out and touch them, but of course you dont because they are wild animals. Most of them were born there, but their parents had been brought there because they were found injured and could not have survived in the wild... anyway, here are some pictures of some of the animals we saw!!! it was a great day, except when daddy spanked me right there on the trail!!! no one was around us at all, and i guess MAYBE.. just MAYBE i was being a bit of a brat... but really!!!! then my bum hurt all the way until we saw the two big bears growling and wrestling with each other!!!!!! then i forgot all about my bum.. and afterwards i was so good daddy bought me ice cream!!!!
a badger[IMG]
a bison
a really big elk
a porcupine
a salamander under water
a little toad under water
Aug 03
UGH!
UUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok i feel better now.
So not much to report, just felt like typing, and thought well i'll type here. As you may have guessed i'm frustrated. Sometimes i get fed up with people. Not any specific people, so please dont think i'm trying to subtly refer to someone that you may or may not know. Just people in general.
Anyway new job is going well, only been a week but i like not working in customer service. its a nice break. Ummm.. not much else to report ....
Jul 27
Ch-Ch-Changes
SOOOO i have a new job. Sunday night is my last night at work, then monday i get this cast off my wrist and on tuesday i start my new job.
for those who dont know, i broke my wrist at work i fell down, it was a random accident.
My new job is just a custodial position, but i'll be training to be a supervisor and after i work there for a year i'll get free tuition, because the job is at my university. ALso its 2$ more an hour than my old job, and 18 paid days off a year. Now for those of you in any country but the USA, you may not realize that we are one of the only countries in hte world that do not have mandatory holidays. Jobs dont even have to pay you extra when you work on a holiday in some states, so to find a job that has 18 paid days off a year, that is really good.
Plus its got full medical/dental/vision.. which again in hte usa, we dont have nation health insurance so being able to get affordable medical is good! and after a year not only do i get free tuition but i get two weeks paid vacation.
but the best part of the job, i get to drive around campus in a golf cart!!!!
so i am excited about starting a new job, it will be a good change i think.
anyway, so my last blog i was a bit well .... ticked off lets say. Sometimes i just so frustrated with people, and you feel like you dont have an outlet you know? and i dont want to alienate people, or make them mad at me, because i'm not like that, really, just sometimes i get so fed up with the absurdity of the world and wish people wouldn't take it so seriously all the time..
but see there i go rambling on, almost saying something that will make someone upset.
I think i should just write a book and have it published under a fake name, then i can rant all i want, but no one will no who i am!!!! i just have to get down to writing a book!!!!
Jul 22
random rantings
ok i wrote this whole long blog ranting about all sorts of things i've come across in the ab/dl community, but at the sake of offending someone, i deleted it before i posted it.
Needless to say, i still sorta wish i could post it, cause its nice to be able to rant and to know someone was reading it, even if they didn't agree with it.
But my intention is not to upset, offend, or hurt anyone here, so forget i never made this blog.
on hte plus side my cast comes off in a week
Jul 18
beginnings
I used to have a blog on the old abplayaway site (RIP) and although i wasn't the best at blogging, i did enjoy having a place where i could just ramble on about stuff, although i will admit, there are lots of thoughts i dont post, because well i understand my views on some things are somewhat controversial and honestly i dont want to create controversy, i just want everyone to just have fun and play nice, so if you are reading this thinking i am going to give opinoins on certain things.. well, i'm not, but if you ever want to know how i feel, or want my advice on something, please feel free to pm me.
So let me give a bit more information about myself and stuff, I did post in the "mystory" section, but it wasn't that long just the bare basics.
So i'm 25, and i grew up on the northeast coast of the usa, lived there for 23 year when i moved to the southeast for about six months, then moved out to the northwest coast and have been here for a year and a half, and absolutely love it.
I go to university, i'm on the 8-10 year plan trying to pay for university so i can get my undergraduate degree.
I like to say i am abnormally well adjusted consider my childhood/teen/early adult years. I dont get into it all, because honestly i dont see the point in continously reliving the past. This isn't to say i've repressed it, quite the contrary, i've accepted everything that has happened, acknowledged that yep a lot of it sucked big time, and accepted that you just can not change the past, so where is the point in dwelling on things that happened 10 years ago.
i am a psychology major at university, but i sometimes find it absurd when people trying to find a reason for every thing they like or dont like. For example, i like wearing diapers and having my boyfriend treat me as a baby. I dont need to know why i like this, just that i like it and so i do it. I can understand wanting to know why if you wish to change the behavior, sometimes finding the cause can help in finding the cure, but i do not see being an AB as something that needs a cure, unless by cure you mean a fresh diaper and a bottle of apple juice.
I want to be a children's librarian when i grow up, and plan on going to grad school for that.
I love to read (if you couldn't tell from my posting about books) and am always up for a good conversation about books, or to get some good recomendations.
As for becoming an ab, it really honestly was as simple as i stated in my post about my life's story. I was living in england, studying abroad for a semester and going an extra credit paper for a psychology class about the effect that relationships infants have with adults who are not related to them have on the growth and development of the infant. I typed in "Adult Baby Relationships" into google and the first site i got was an ab story site with a picture of a very large, very hairy grown man in a big yellow dress, bonnet and diaper.
My first reaction was to laugh, because i'm sorry but if even i can step back and see the absurdity in seeing a grown man or woman in diapers and dressed as a baby. Anyway, but i was interested, what the heck was this all about, so i read a story.
The next day i went back to the site and read a few more stories.
I kept going back to the site and six months later, i had moved back to the usa and had gotten my own apartment. One night i went out to the wal mart down the road and bought a pack of depends overnight briefs, or something like that, along with a pacifier, baby wipes, powder, a bottle and some apple juice. I paid for it, went back to my place and put on the diaper and filled my bottle up with juice and watched the chipmunks adventure movie.
I wasn't embarassed to by the stuff, didn't feel the need to say something random to the cashier, just made the usual small talk, said she could put it all in the same bag, and told her to have a good night and went back home. My face never got red, i wasn't afraid i'd see someone i knew... i think i saw like four people i knew its a town of like 2000 people and the university had about that many students there, so i had a very good chance the clerk would be someone i knew, although they werent.
SO there i was sitting in a diaper with a bottle of juice and i finally wet the diaper, but i had to be on my knees to do it. Actually even now i have to be standing or on my knees, i can't wet lying down or sitting. Anyway, so there i was and after about an hour it dawned on me ... THIS SUCKS!!! is all i thought.
No way did I want to put the diaper on myself, or give myself the bottle.I wanted a daddy to do that for me. So the next day i sought out some ab/dl personal sites. Although the first site like that i found was alt.com i posted there, because i was into some other stuff as well. I found diapermates and the old yahoo chat rooms. I think that was where i first met DC.. i can't remember for sure.
So while i had posts on the ab/dl websites, i still was looking for dates ad stuff just in general, but i always kinda knew that if i were going to have a serious relationship with someone he would also have to be my daddy. Aftera couple years, two or three, i got an email from the man who is now my daddy and boyfriend. We've been together two years now and i couldn't be happier. Yes it took a long time, but i'd rather wait for the right man to come around than waste my time with the wrong one.
So no, i never had the desire or thought to wear diapers before i found the website, i never had fantasies about being 'babied', although i did know i was a 'sub' in regards to sex. I dont have any stories of being a bed wetter (i was potty trained at 2 and never wet the bed) i was never put into diapers as punishment, and i certainly dont think being potty trained that early caused me to feel the need to wear diapers later in life.
i just found a website andthought it was something i would like, i tried it, and i did.
I certainly understand there are those who's need/desire for diapers does indeed come from some childhood experience. Its just in my case it doesnt, and i've come to realize that in the ab/dl community that makes me decidedly different.
wow that was sortaa long story for being an ab. Anyway, i just wanted to sorta clear up how i got into this whole thing. I'm not even sure if anyone is gonna read this but if you do, please leave me a comment to let me know its being read.
I'll write more later, i'll tell the incredible true story of how i broke my wrist at work. It wont be as long as this i swear.
 10:55 PM Dec 5
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