Apr 06
April 6th, 2009: Nice new Dr.
Well saww new specilast thismoring told her my past medical history. seamed like the gears in her head wher spining. think she hass som ideas but not sure. sh had them do blood work. stoped by my regular dr to secdual apt for shot. they took mes back and wheighed mes today instead. i knew i would be to hevvy becase ate before going. so sr refused shot. swo scedualed to come in agian tomorow cept i wont eat anything before goings. so that showd show my reall wheaight. gus my normal dr likes playing games. if it gomes to it daddys say we will just buy my meds off the internet over seaes and self medicait.
Sweet Baby Alwice
Mar 24
March 23rd, 2009
woke up in pains. the front n side mes head been hurting problys a small migrains but still hurts. in other new still bee feeling very downs. sleep patern is all mesed up n every things. do see mes dr tomorows mes just hope mes wont have a mood swings whens mes see hers. latly its a strugles to gets mes selfs out beds. well maby dr will helps mes for onces.
Sweets Babys Alwice
Mar 18
March 18th, 2009: So Down in the Dumps
the good new is finly starting to sleep again and mes hunger came back for the most parts but still very depresed. couples days ago was just terfied for mes life. dont even know whys. was wasctching star trek voyger next thing mes knows imes curled up in a ball hyperventlating. then the next day was extrmmly happy. now deprsed agains. think mes know whys. becase mes was like this long before mes mets daddys. mes started seeing mes dr and she gave mes a med that helped alots. it aced up when she kept taking mes on and off its. now thats she stoped it completly mes a emotional wreck agian like mes was before seeing the drs. about this close to self medicating. know its danjurus but so is depresion. guss relly dont know whats to do relly. see mess curnt dr on the 24th. then see the new dr that the nurse paraction referd mes tos on the 6th. gusss till then pray mes dont stop eating agian.
Sweets Babys Alwice
Mar 10
March 10th, 2009: True Babys
well fist mes beters from the sickness still wating on referl from dr. though.
Mes was laying in daddys arms the others days n mes was about to crys. mes felts bads becase mes nots a sexuals persons for daddys. like mes was letings daddys downs. daddys says its nots thats daddys says mes just truwly like ans babys. babys have no intrest in sex and its whys mes nevers hads intwest in its. mes gussy its another resons daddys calls mes a trues babys and nots a ab. after the talks daddy puts mes paci in mes mouf and stroked mes hair. mes feww asweep in daddys arms wike dats.
Sweets Babys Alwice
Mar 05
March 5th, 2009: Mes Verys Scarweds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know that special time moth girls have??? well mes on day 14 and very scarweds. mes saw the nurse practioners yesterday. she was very conserneds. she checking mes for animeas what eber thats is all mes knows mes arm n hand hurts. they tried arms then gave ups n stuck mes hands. funny thing is they wanted urin samples and they knews mes incons!!!! go figures dats ones. but she wrotes mes prescriptions and referls to asn news endocrynoligest. mes hope theys cans helps mess mes very scareds mes always dizzy evens in beds and been fallings ons ocasions. daddys tryings to makes mes nots so scared dohs.
Sweets Babys Alwice
*suckles mes paci*
Mar 04
March 3rd, 2009: Happys Bifdays Daddys
its mes daddys bifdays eve thoughd mes dints haves anys monyes to buy mes daddys a pwesnts. daddys says hes happy becase hes haves mes. mes wish ther was some way mes cowds mades daddys day speciaws. but aslong as mes wif daddy mes very happys ands mes hope mes makes mes daddys feew the sames.
Mes Wuv Yous Daddys
Sweets Babys Alwice
*suckles mes paci*
Feb 20
Feb. 19th 2009: Hate mes Dr.
well mes havent hads mes shot in 2 months n mes fell likes mes goings crazys mes still havving mood swings but mes tryings to contreows dems. all the other drss at her clinic say she showdent messs with mes hormones likess thats. daddys saays if she dossnt sstops it daddys gets mes estrogen off the webs. mes prefer to be unders dr care buts mes need spcialst n she only specilist in 200 miles. so whatss mes n daddys tos. mes cry alots n very depreseds latleys. daddys says me havent changedss it just mes have to dwivess daddyss arownds ands haves to cares for mes diapies n baths. not muchs ewse for mes to say mes guss other then mes need mes teddy n paci.
Sweets Babys Alwice
*suckwes mes paci*
Feb 13
Feb. 13th 2009: V-Day
well been a intresting week mes hormones all out wack n daddys want to gill me dr for doing this to mes agains. altogh daddys got mes ans new teddys for vdays. it super cutes. its deep reds and has red heart with gold fringes. and on the hearts says mes loves you. mes havent been up to much sleepy on the floors bvy mes daddy becase its easer for daddys to sleep in recliners due to daddys pains. mes curled ups wif mes new teddys ands mes blankies byes hims n fell sweepys. mes like to spread outs mes blankies n plays wif mes toys out there toos. other den thats not muchs bens going ons.
Sweets Babys Alwice
*suckles mes fumb*
Feb 06
Feb. 6th 2009: Felling Betters
Well wher do mes begiens? Mes was cryings ans lots. one time mes crieds 4 hours strates. mes scareds lots peoples. mes stills ans babys its just mes daddys is hurts so bads daddy cants bend downs to changes mes daipies ore give mes ans baths. mes drives everys wears becase daddys cant get in n out of drivers seats dues to daddys knees. all mes know is mes will be with daddy frever evens ins death becase hes mes daddys and mes wuv hims.
Sweets Babys Alwice
*suckles mes fumb*
Feb 02
Feb. 2nd, 2009: I am so DEPRESED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mes feeling horible latly. mes dont know if mes becase my dar not giving mes my estrogen or what. all mes know is mes is crying alot. mes feel lik mes have lost mes daddy and mes baby life.. since daddys got hurt mes have to take cars myself becase daddy hurts to much. mes spend all my time on Second life anymore. mes have to change my own diapes mes rairly take a bath any more when mes do its not becase mes dirty is becase mes want to play with the bubbles and mes ruber ducky. mes think mes all baby and becide normal ting womens go trough mes very much a babys. all mes ever wanted is to be loved proteced and care fore. to sleep in a crib given baths wach cartoons and play with toys. but mes feel im losing that maby mes just crazy longing to be nothing more then a baby. but it all mes have ever wanted. other abs wont even talk to mes becae they cant relate to mes. mes guss mes just a big mess.
Sweet Babys Alwice
*sobing*
 1:51 PM Nov 26
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